It’s just that I really don’t trust people easily. I’m scared that I’ll get attatched and I’ll get judged. It’s one of the hardest things for me to do - trust someone. I just am always thinking about what you’re thinking of me, which I wish I didn’t think this way but I do. So many negative thoughts always run through my head, some I can’t even bring myself to write here or in my notes folder - because some are questions that I truly cannot handle the answer to because I’m afraid I already know the answer. I constantly wonder if you’re in the state of mind of “were going toget married” or “we’ll break up eventually”
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It’s just that I really don’t trust people easily. I’m scared that I’ll get attatched and I’ll get judged. It’s one of the hardest things for me to do - trust someone. I just am always thinking about what you’re thinking of me, which I wish I didn’t think this way but I do. So many negative thoughts always run through my head, some I can’t even bring myself to write here or in my notes folder - because some are questions that I truly cannot handle the answer to because I’m afraid I already know the answer
(Source: lovequotesrus)
So in those notes…
In that notes folder on my phone that you said you wanted to read..well really it’s nothing bad it’s just when I have things in my head that I need to get out and don’t want to put on here.
Like there’s one from the night after the first time we spent the night together and I just wrote about how I was having trouble sleeping without you. It was truly a feeling I’d never had before.
Some of the stuff I wrote in there is just so personal. Not that relationships aren’t personal, but you know.
The last thing I wrote about was a couple days ago and it was really something I didn’t want you to see. But you might as well know.
Ever since we both broke down in December and almost broke up I’ve honestly been living in fear.
I’m scared that I’ll do something wrong and I constantly feeling the need to apologize because I don’t want to mess up and do something where you feel like it’s the last straw.
I’m always scared you’re going to get fed up with me.
How I want to be cheered up if I’m down.
Maybe someday I’ll grow the courage to show this to you.
Earlier I thought about today—
Joe talked to me about how he’s been doing a little better mentally because he’s been talking with me. But then he started talking about his health and was talking about something that’s wrong and said “I guess I just have to accept what I have.” I talked to him after school and then I was with Bk for a little bit and I was about to cry the entire time. Joe has become to special to me in such a short amount of time and I just, I think about him so much and he’s such a source of happiness for me. He’s opened up to me and said he sometimes wishes he had gone first because it might have been easier for him - but then he would never want to put his wife through this. The way he talks about her, it’s so sweet and I really really wish I could see them reunite together in Heaven. Joe is so nice and is honestly one of the best people I know. He’s so concerned that he’s coming on too strong - and that makes me so sad because I want him to understand that I love having him and there’s no way he could say anything that would push it. He’ll tell me that I’m beautiful and he’s glad he knows me, but then apologize for going to far. I just can’t even comprehend how I won’t always have him…he’s so important to me and I’ve been crying so much because I just can’t lose him.
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A picture began circulating in November. It should be “The Picture of the Year,” or perhaps, “Picture of the Decade.” It won’t be. In fact, unless you obtained a copy of the U.S. paper which published it, you probably would never have seen it.
The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by surgeon named Joseph Bruner. The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother’s womb. Little Samuel’s mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr. Bruner’s remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at Vanderbilt University Medical Center in Nashville, he performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.
During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr. Bruner completed the surgery on Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon’s finger. Dr. Bruner was reported as saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment of his life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen, totally immobile.
The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity. The editors titled the picture, “Hand of Hope.” The text explaining the picture begins, “The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas emerges from the mother’s uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life.”Little Samuel’s mother said they “wept for days” when they saw the picture. She said, “The photo reminds us pregnancy isn’t about disability or an illness, it’s about a little person” Samuel was born in perfect health, the operation 100 percent successful. Now see the actual picture, and it is awesome…incredible….and hey, pass it on! The world needs to see this one!
I can’t get over this. a few tears fell. and will everytime I remember it. I have never experinced something so moving. Can you imagine being the surgeon? I’m speachless, I’m trying to think of something inspiring to write but I just can’t. there’s a block. how can I beat the words that this photograph illuminates itself? what a beautiful moment in history.Please please please reblog and share this with the world.
(Source: waldorfpenthouse)
